Let’s Not Forget The Story

Standing at the Notice board in SAE the other day.

October: EOP
Caught my attention, so i turned to my classmate and this how the conversation turned out.

“What the heck is EOP?”
“It’s end of program man!”
“That fast? i thought we suppose to end around Jan 2010!”
“Well, stay and Rot in SAE if you want man..”

One more year, it suddenly dawn on me.
One more year to Work? or even Melbourne?

Am i ready for this? well. a years time to prepare myself.

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Oh we could lie beneath the stars
Or watch a thousand passing cars
From the roof of this prison, yeah yeah

Oh we could make this moment ours
And I could hold you, touch your scars
I can’t believe that I have you, yeah yeah

I said… you, I waste myself on you
You, I do anything for you
Yeah, waste myself on you, yeah yeah

Like a feather in a hurricane
That’s sweeping through my brain
I can’t seem to find hope in this situation, love
Oh, so I tremble like an earthquake
Your tears are heavy rain
They drown my soul in apathy
like a flood, love
Singing now

You, I waste myself on you
You, I do anything for you
Yeah, waste myself on you, yeah yeah

You set me on fire
Now we’re walking on a wire baby, a wire baby
You set me on fire
Now we’re walking on a wire baby, a wire baby

You, I waste myself on you
You, I do anything for you
Yeah, waste myself on you, yeah yeah

-Waste Myself
This Providence.

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It makes you wanna play the piano near the beach.

and it makes you wanna move away from here and to somewhere else.

Things she can make you do and feel.

Here we go again.
Can i be that numb to it? or can i just ignore it again?

And no, I don’t wanna wait forever.

“..Somebody told me
That everyone’s phony
‘Til somebody’s lonely
I hope that you’re lonely
I hope that you’re only
Waiting to phone me”

- The moon is a Magnet
Jon Foreman.

“If you let your feelings go, dear
It’ll scare you what you’ll find
I find them on your street, dear
And you’re always on my mind

..Would you let me see the world behind your eyes?”

-Behind your eyes
Jon foreman

“It is the moment when she looked away.”
“Oh, is that so?”

“You’ll look forward to that second gaze.”

“..wash me white as snow,
And i will be made whole.”

- Jon Foreman

Just as the reverbs and delays from the bridge rang out.
It was just enough to bring you down on your knees.

Profound words from my dad’s Prep talk today.
“What can make you stop pressing on and pushing on? only one thing. The lack of trust in God.”

The thing i really dislike the most: going through the whole process of things again.
But then again, i find myself inevitably in it again.
Stuck, torn in between of things.

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On a much lighter note.
I promise myself this, i’ll stop here. But i just have to say this.

“..And in case you were wondering, you are like a sunset to me
You’re all kinds of beautiful as you end my day
And you sweetly retire as the stars chase you away

And in case you were wondering, you are like a hurricane to me
Your violence is beautiful, and your center sweet
Now tell me this, do you know how we’d meet?”

-Sunset and Car Crashes
The Spill Canvas.

So when you say forever, you’ve already captured me.

“Beautiful— like the summer rain to wash away the winter stain
Beautiful— like the morning sun inviting the dawn to break
Beautiful— like the joy that comes when the love you’ve longed for has just begun
Beautiful— making everything brand new
Beautiful you”

-Beautiful
Trading yesterday

Nuff said. and so the silence begin.

“..In the midst of this self inflicted pain.
I’ll trample my pride until the whole world dances with me.
I can see my beautiful rescue.”

-My beautiful rescue
This Providence.

Wash this hands, this bloody hands Lord.

A very profound song by switchfoot.
I know of multiple people who posted it on their blogs, notes and where ever.

Some days you just wanna wake up kicking and screaming.
Some days you wanna know if you heart is beating or bleeding.

Just sitting back one day and just thinking about it..

I just don’t like being reminded of things that really hits your heart hard.
Experiences.

But God has ways to really deal with your heart.

So here we are now with the fallen sky and the rain
we’re awakening

-Awakening
Switchfoot.

Waiting for the breakdown.

Like an instrument for a song
Like the sun for tomorrow’s dawn
Every moment of time’s just an answer to find
What you’re here for, what you breathe for
What you wake for, what you bleed for

-Progress
MuteMath.