These Long hours, Short days.

“Joel: It would be different, if we could just give it another go-round.”
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.

 

Yet.

Rainy weather the pass week, the sky just decides when it wants to rain or whatever.

All attempts have failed
All my heads are tails
She’s got teary eyes
I’ve got reasons why

It’s a slow process on how we learn to stand back on our own two feet sometimes.
The weather these few days feels alot more forgiving than it use to be.

I’m glad that i have my “WALL” of friends sometimes. you guys just crack me up sometimes.

These days pass me by
I dream with open eyes
Nightmares haunt my days
Visions blur my nights
I’m loosing ground and gaining speed
I’ve lost myself or most of me
I’m headed for the final precipice

But you haven’t lost me yet
You haven’t lost me yet
I’ll sing until my heart caves in

No you haven’t lost me yet
If it doesn’t break
If it doesn’t break
If it doesn’t break your heart is it love?
No, if it doesn’t break your heart it’s not enough
It’s when you’re breaking down with your insides coming out
That’s when you find out what your heart is made up of

 

yup, i finally found out what it was made off.

 

 

We could use some sunshine on these rainy evenings.

The title is taken from  Eloisa to Abelard by Alexander Pope.

 

Rated 93% on rotten tomatoes.
Despite the set being on a snowy ice-cy month of february.

Still has that sunshine kinda feeling to it.
a small background on what this movie is about:

Joel Barish(Jim Carrey), heartbroken that his girlfriend Clementine(Kate Winslet)  underwent a procedure to erase him from her memory, decides to do the same. However, as he watches his memories of her fade away, he realizes that he still loves her, and may be too late to correct his mistake. as Joel’s memories progressively disappear, he begins to rediscover their earlier passion.

 Jim carrey, wasn’t really JIM CARREY in this one.  i think both actors portrayed the characters really well.

The soundtrack? one word. Heavenly.
who would have thought a track only lasting 1 minute could have so much emotions and impact.

Kudos to Jon Brian, the composer of most of the tracks on the soundtrack.

 

Like i said, it’s appealing once again.
Like 500 days of summer, it is told from a Guy’s point of view.

Joel: Mierzwiak! Please let me keep this memory, just this one. 

Most of the movie takes place in joel’s mind.
on how he decided he could not bear the thought of having clementine being complete erased from his memories, runs. but in the end having to just succumb it all.

 

Amazing ending i’d say. catch the movie!

 i guess in every good thing, there is always some bad times. Bad times compliments the Good things in what we do, what we see.
you can’t really appreciate something till is gone, out of your hands.

 

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been doing alot of writing lately. 
in the car, waiting in the car, bus stop, during lunches, in between breaks.

 had a chance to take a bus back the other day. sat next to a girl, who looked like she was about to break into tears..

“I wished you smile more.. who stole the fire in your eyes? I guess she lost something as well.
you and i both, we lost it. we lost it. we really lost it, now didn’t we?” 

a total stranger, what could i do?

Wrote a note.
Just before i left the bus, the note landed in her hands.

I din’t see her reaction or anything.

 

“Just hang on, you’ll pull through.”

Something written to myself, i guess she needs it more than i do.

 

Come back and make up a good-bye at least. Let’s pretend we had one.

 

 

Joel: [in the house on the beach] I really should go! I’ve gotta catch my ride.
Clementine: So go.
Joel: I did. I thought maybe you were a nut… but you were exciting.
Clementine: I wish you had stayed.
Joel: I wish I had stayed to. NOW I wish I had stayed. I wish I had done a lot of things. I wish I had… I wish I had stayed. I do.
Clementine: Well I came back downstairs and you were gone!
Joel: I walked out, I walked out the door!
Clementine: Why?
Joel: I don’t know. I felt like I was a scared little kid, I was like… it was above my head, I don’t know.
Clementine: You were scared?
Joel: Yeah. I thought you knew that about me. I ran back to the bonfire, trying to outrun my humiliation.
Clementine: Was it something I said?
Joel: Yeah, you said “so go.” With such disdain, you know?
Clementine: Oh, I’m sorry.
Joel: It’s okay.
[Walking Out]
Clementine: Joely? What if you stayed this time?
Joel: I walked out the door. There’s no memory left.
Clementine: Come back and make up a good-bye at least. Let’s pretend we had one.
[Joel comes back]
Clementine: Bye Joel.
Joel: I love you…
Clementine: Meet me… in Montauk…

-Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless mind

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People always walk out the door.
People always leave..

Come back and make up a good-bye at least. Let’s pretend we had one.

 

Just wish that it don’t have to be this cold….

As cold it as it may seemed..
deep down.
Feels that alot of the doors are closed..

Here i am..
missing you, i seriously do.

Just that, now i really don’t  know how to show you.. =/
Feels that alot of the doors are closed..

 

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Sometimes bombs fall quietly.

someone is dreaming
someone is hoping just that this will be the day

maybe that someone’s me
maybe it’s meant to be 
lovers, strangers
sometimes bombs fall quietly..

..i hope that someone is me..

-Someone Somewhere
Jason Reeves

 

where did the 2 years went? 

 

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I’m still praying.

 

I’ll call front and i’ll take the first shot.

Fight

Definition: Strength or disposition for fighting; pugnacity; as, he has a great deal of fight in him. 

 

boys grow up “fighting“, believe or not.
i spent most of my childhood imagining i was in a war, would make solid “guns” out of Lego. 
days hiding the garden, dodging imaginary bullets. having to rescue a damsel in distress. 

Despite having been shot down, you refuse to surrender.
Despite having surrounded by enemies, you keep fighting on. 
you don’t give up. YOU NEVER GIVE UP. 
I can remember so clearly of having friends over at the playground opposite my place, having water-gun battles.

it’s not really a “KiaSu” thing but no one wanted to admit surrender despite being soak over and over again by the water-guns.
i guess it’s because we wanted to stay in the game, we wanted to keep on fighting. 

it all i guess prepared us guys on the road to become fighters. 

 

at the end of it all, you’d stand tall and be the hero. 
i guess “fight” is what make guys, rather guys. 

The Question is now if fight is what make guys, guys. then:

What are we fighting for?

I’ve chose to fight for dreams.

I’ve chose to fight hard.

I’ll fight for you if you want me to. but i’ve chose to do so.

 

fight ¹⁶

Definition: exert oneself continuously, vigorously, engage in a crusade for a certain cause or person;